"A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes, and sunshine breaks through the clouds."

I'm waiting for the sunshine. I feel like I've been waiting forever. And I know it's my own fault that it's not breaking through, I really do. But I've been getting so caught up in past experiences that it just terrifies me to end up in the same place again. So I've been taking the opposite approach. I've known all throughout that I'm just going to end up hurting myself, that nothing good is going to come of it. But I'm scared to go back.

I'm scared to go back to what should be a better place, but a place that was ruined for me by so many people.